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At the end of the day, it's not about what
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you have or even what you've accomplished. It's about what
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you've done with those accomplishments. It's about who you've lifted up,
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who you've made better. It's about what you've given back.
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Denzel Washington, welcome to inspire Vision. Our sole purpose is
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to elevate the lives of others and to inspire you
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to do the same.
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Thomas, Welcome to the show.
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It's good to be here, Doctor Doug. It's thank you
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for having me. I really appreciate the opportunity.
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It's great and you're so lucky to have an easy
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last name Brown.
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Trygall Branson enough times and you'll realize where I go by,
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doctor Doug.
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Yeah, yeah, a little bit, I understand.
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Funny enough, like Thomas is my middle name and my
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first name is Chris, and for the longest time, Yeah,
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I decided to go by my middle name.
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Once Chris Brown, the R.
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And B singer, became a big name before he beat
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up his girlfriend at the time, Rihanna. But when I
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was in film school, every single time I would call
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up an order film, they would always make fun of me.
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So I was like, all right, I'm going by my
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middle name, going by Tomas us.
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I actually do that too. I know it's not my
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birth announcement. It was just call me dog.
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But my first name's after my my dad, Norman, but
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it was just always just call me Doug. So that's
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where I'm at.
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To right, all right, Well let's say page with that, okay.
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So, Hey, I'd love for you to share with the
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audience your journey. I think that would be really turned
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outus for you to do that. And I also talk
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a little bit about your book. But then we'll get
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into the contents a little bit later and really start
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talking about some things.
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Well, I think like it's important to bring up the
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book because the book is about the journey exactly.
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Yeah.
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So my book is called twenty twelve A Bicycle Odyssey,
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seven thousand mile bicycle journey for suicide awareness and the
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healing power of art. So back in two thousand and one,
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I lost my brother Mark Brown to suicide. And in
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two thousand, roughly twenty ten, I had I had known
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about this guy, but I met I met a buddy.
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I met a guy named Zach, and he lost his
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brother Sean to suicide. And I believe that was in
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two thousand and six. And before before I had met Zach,
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I didn't I had never known anybody who lost somebody
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to suicide. I probably knew a lot of people, but
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they hadn't shared it with me right And and it
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was just a little fortunitous of the connection between Zach
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and I. You know, I was working, I was at
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the time where we were both working for a parks
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uh department for a community park system, and I was
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working at the park that my brother had worked at
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when he died, and I I had known Zach and
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I had known about each other within the park system because.
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It's you know, it's it's it's it's like a small town.
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Everybody knows who everybody is, even.
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If you don't work with them on a daily basis.
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But it wasn't until a day that Zach filled in
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to cover a shift for one of my co workers.
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Then him and I really got a chance to know
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each other and talk, and I think we both took
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a shine to each.
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Other relatively early.
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It was right fast forward a couple of months.
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We decided to meet up and just get some coffee
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and and and hang out and get to know each
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other a little bit better. And he was reading a
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book that I had been reading. He was reading the
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second book in the Ishmael series by Daniel Quinn. I
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had just finished Ishmael and I was reading the Story
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of b which is the second book in the series,
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and he was reading My Ishmael, And so we had
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that to like start our conversation with. I really enjoyed
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Daniel Quinn's He really puts an emphasis on the importance
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of knowing your story, your personal story, the cultural story,
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a national story, a world story, the specie story. Just
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a massive emphasis on the It's like a level of
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self awareness that I really appreciated.
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And so Zach, you know, asked me like he had
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known that.
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I'd been going through some emotional turmoil and he asked
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me what it was, and even though this was about
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nine years after my brother had died, I was still
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I finally started going through therapy and working through that
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trauma and among other things that had shaped my life
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in a negative way. And so I told him about
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my brother and his suicide. A few hours go by,
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we're still hanging out and he's like, Hey, I just
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want to let you know my brother died of suicide too,
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And so we just had that connection that you know,
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when you have a share trauma with somebody, you don't
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really have to talk about it too much. It's like
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if you're having a bad day, you could just look
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at the person and they know they know some of
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the background that can contribute to that bad day. So
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it was just like this knowing having somebody in my
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life and knowing about that pain was.
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I later found out that the hit This is where
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the fortuita stuff.
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Not only did Zach and I like our friendship build
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like really start at the place that my brother used
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to work at, but Zach and my brother shared the
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same birthday, so it was like, you know, we met
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each other.
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At the place where my brother worked at.
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We were both reading the same book on the night
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that we really made a connection, and then he had
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the same birthday as my brother, and I knew at
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the time that, like, there's something to this friendship. It
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wasn't just about chasing chasing women, playing basketball together and
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drinking getting together and drinking beers. It was some a
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little bit deeper than this. And I was dating a
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woman at the time who was a pin up model
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for a online pin up for alternative beauty.
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It was called suicide Girls.
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It's just you know, women with tattoos, dyed.
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Hair, and piercings, and so I dubbed this woman and
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Zach my suicide friends, even.
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Though one was more of like the kind of like pretentious, edgy.
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Alternative beauty, and the other one was legitimate, like lost
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somebody to suicide.
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And those are where things get even weirder. Is that
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I was. I was at the time.
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I did a lot of photography on the side, and
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the woman asked me if I would shoot a suicide
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girl a Phoenix suicide Girls community gathering.
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So I was like, yeah, sure, I'll do this. I
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don't really like club scenes or anything like that. It's
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not my speed, but I was doing it for her.
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Her and I were we had been seeing each other
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for a while, and I called Zach and I was like, hey, man,
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I need you to come hang out with me.
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Just just just kick it with me this place. This
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is a weird scene.
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And I'm just not I'm hiding behind the camera and
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I'm not really talking in to anybody.
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So he came out and I was Even though I
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was happy I had.
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This, I was I was dating this woman that I
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had a pretty decent relationship at the time with, and
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then you know, had somebody like Zach, somebody who understood
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where I was at emotionally.
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There was something inside me that was I felt like
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I was being called to something.
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I just didn't know what that calling was, but it
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was deep down inside it was driving me crazy, and
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I just knew that I needed to do something.
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I just didn't know what it was.
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So I Zach came to the bar and we hung
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out and I told him about this thing that was
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nine at me. And as I was describing it to him,
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I talked about this journey that I had gone on
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four years previously before I had met him, where I
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walked I was. I was a cameraman and a production
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assistant for a documentary that followed a group of people
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that walked from Phoenix, Arizona, to.
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Washington, d C.
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Wow, there's a group of progressive Christians that basically excuse
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me as a group of progressive Christians that they didn't
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want to go and just like spread their theology. They
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wanted to find people that vehemently disagreed with them and
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then Okay, we disagree with each other on these things
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about sexuality and civil rights and other faiths, but let's
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see what we do agree and then we'll build a relationship,
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a positive relationship from there. Like that was their intention.
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It didn't really go like that. It was more of
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like speaking to the choir literally. But I was turned
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on by that walk. Even though I'm not a Christian.
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I just felt like that the philosophy and the ideas
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I resonated with I needed to change something in my
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life at that time period, back in two thousand and six.
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So I did this walk across the country and I'm
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telling Zach about it in twenty ten and how it
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just changed my life and I wanted to do something else,
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and he's like, well, let's I think we should do something,
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and I was like, yeah, I think you're right. We
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came together for a reason. He's all, like, I wouldn't
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I wouldn't want to walk across the country, but I
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would ride my bike across the country. I was like yeah,
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He's like, hey, I think we should do it for
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our brothers. I was like, that was a brilliant idea.
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I don't know why I didn't about myself. So we
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just decided to like ride our bikes across the country.
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I just found it like fitting. The two survivors two lost,
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two suicide.
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Loss survivors discussed the idea of riding their bicycles cross
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country for suicide awareness while at a suicide girls community party.
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It was probably like kind of a girl like like what.
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Tervice McKenna would call cosmic giggles that were just you
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couldn't I couldn't deny it. And you know, about six
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months later is when we made the decision, Okay, we're
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going to do this. And it took about thirteen months
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to put it all together.
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Or and is it do the cold calls the called
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different crisis centers across the country, build a relationship and
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a partnership with the crisis center locally in Phoenix, create
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the route, do fundraising projects, get all of our gear
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and and then it was seven months of life on
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the road.
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Wow, seven months we support So it's not as crazy
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as it sounds, but I mean we.
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The support vehicle was in case somebody got injured, which
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was helpful because Zach did have like a back injury.
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From North Carolina until about Philly, so I did. I
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was doing the writing every single day from Charlotte, North Carolina,
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all the way up to Philly, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. So but
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it was, it was, it was an extraordinary experience that
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you know, by the time we had started, I had
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already come to terms with my trauma and my grief
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of losing my brother. But I was really interested in
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how other people, like, what their story was like, what
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was their relationship like with their loved ones that they lost,
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How did relationships change after they suffered that trauma and
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experienced that grief, and how how the community treated them
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as an individual, because you know, suicide has has a
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strong taboo connected to it, and I also wanted to
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learn like what people did to navigate their trauma and
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how to transcend that. And along the way we met
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an extraordinary activist therapists, people who had just low survivors
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who lost loved ones and lawmakers, and I think above
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all one of the things that I learned not only
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from the people that I met, but I learned what
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happiness means to me and how I what I should
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what I should do in order, you know, to live
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a more fulfilled life. So really kind of like opened
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me up, and it was, it was, it was a