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At the end of the day, it's not about what
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you have or even what you've accomplished. It's about what
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you've done with those accomplishments. It's about who you've lifted up,
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who you've made better. It's about what you've given back.
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Denzel Washington, welcome to inspire Vision. Our sole purpose is
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to elevate the lives of others and to inspire you
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to do the same.
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Cal welcome to the show.
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Thanks for having me, Doctor Doug. I normally love to
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start this by just extending migrations to your audience as well,
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and I do that in my native language saying drema
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alang daelang lo guy, and the direct translation of that
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dreamlang is I agree. The guy is where are you
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as a locate yourself? And the question is when you
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are showing up today or every time only showing up
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by inspiration with doctor Dog? How what is your what
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is your intention? What is it that you want to
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get from this? And where are you? Are you fully
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here with an intention to receive something new or you
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are coming with your cop full you know? So I'm
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just inviting you for this time around that we're just
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going to be here. Choose to be fully present and
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not in your mind, not with us, you know, but
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allow your body to communicate with you. Because normally we
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tell our body what it feels and and all that.
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But this time around, make it the other way around.
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Led to your body communicate with you those sensations and
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all that.
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So where you located right now?
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I'm actually in Germany right now. I've been here. I've
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been living in Germany for ten.
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Years, okay, and originally you're from.
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Wellana in Southern Africa.
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Okay.
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I would love for you to share your story with
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the audience.
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Of you know.
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I mean, you've had some amazing experiences from what I
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can tell. I'd love for you to share those experiences
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and what motivated you to kind of become.
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And get to the point that you are now and
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what you're doing.
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Thank you? What motivated me? I just love that question.
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I just come from a very tardy, non family back
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in Africa, and one thing that is big for me
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is being our unique self and imbrason who we are.
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And I would say when I was young, I I
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just knew who I was. I was a queen and
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I knew I was a queen. But we live in
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a society where often the society, the family, the culture,
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the religious system, medicational system, medical system, political system tells
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us who we are before we can find out who
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we are, or even when we know who we are,
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it's kind of like a battle. You have to rebel
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to embrace who you are. So I went through that
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as well where my mother what my mom used to say.
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She's late now for more than ten years, but she
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always used to say, you are not like my other children.
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And it's something that I've always known since I was
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a child. And I was because somehow I thought I
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was okay with it, because even from that I would
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say rebel in a child response, I was just like, yeah,
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that's why my name is different, so I can't be
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like them. But I realized later that somewhere a learned
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the way for who I was. I wanted to fit in.
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I wanted to be accepted, and this was playing out
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in toxic relationships that I found myself in. This was
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playing out not only romantic relationship but also toxic relationships
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at work and life has this way of bringing us
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to ourselves. That is the thing that I valued the most,
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which is like my corporate job. It was my identity.
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I just loved sharing that, Oh I'm an account to
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this company and just what comes with that. But down
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I was dying, you know, I was disconnected. I hated
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my job. And as much as I was going to
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WORG thinking that I'm working hard for my children, but
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I was never present as well for my children. I
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would come home at two and in the morning, we
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have to write so that I can drop them. So
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I lost my job and that was the moment that
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was defining. But at the same time, it's kind of
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like I observed two aspects of myself. At the moment,
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my human was scared because the question was how am
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I going to pay my children's school fees, how am
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I gonna pay the mortgage and all these stories. But
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at the same time, for me, it was like, this
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is the moment, this is like there was that deeper whisper,
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this is the moment for your freedom, and I was
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like okay. As many people didn't want to volunteer for
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their voluntary package, I took it. And the same year,
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I had a dream of my younger brother having an
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accident and I told him my habit. I had a
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dream and this was so real because the conversation I
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was having by myself when I was going through it, it
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was so real. It's exactly what we normally talk about.
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And he said, I'm still going to be here for
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a long time. And two weeks afterwards, the accident happened,
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and I remember when I saw him lying by that bed,
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fighting for his life. After that visit, I went back
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to my room and I closed the door and I cried.
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And while I was crying, my prayer was God save him,
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and I'll do what I came here to do. Somehow
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I knew that I'm running away from myself, but I
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didn't know what that is going to cost me, because
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the reasn't why we don't follow our purpose. We are
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afraid of paying the price. So a year after I
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lost my mom and then I went through the judicial
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injustice of being separated from my children, and my children
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were my strength. I felt like I was living for them,
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so through that hotache, through that feeling powerless, and all
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the shame because as women, we identify or we are
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esteemed by our children. So I didn't know who I was.
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And I remember one day when I came from that
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was after I moved to Germany, because I took the
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brave of relocating from Botana to Germany without my children,
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because that was the whole agenda to say no, you
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can't move with the children and all that and even
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other yeah, the baseless, baseless case. But at the end
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of the day, I lost many times. I held many times,
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and I lost my case, and I moved because I
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felt like, if I'm going to be here, I don't
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think I'll live for long. And one day when I
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was coming from Weg, I just had the nuge to
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start writing, and I started writing. And the questions that
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came through, who are you without your mother? Who are
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you without your father, without your religion, without your house,
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your job, your husband, your wife, all these questions. And
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at first I was writing, just writing, but detached. What
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caught my attention was who are you without your children?
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And that's when I started boiling and just and it's
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kind of like the pen was even banning because I
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dropped it and I say, this message is for me.
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And the next time was but who am I? So
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who am I? Was another journey, But on the other hand,
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it brought me to being a where I am in
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doing what I'm doing because I believe truly what we
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are here to get best, what our soul desires, is
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what is built within us. But we often listen outside
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without listening what is within us. So I found myself
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where I was always meant to be. But I was
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learning our way from myself and hence the pain and
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all that I went through.
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Yeah, you know, and it's interesting you talk about who
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am I, and I think about you know, from a
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religious standpoint, you know, Christ saying I am that I am,
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and you know I think that you know, you talk
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about Buddha and he talks about really finding out who
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you truly are and getting rid.
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Of all of this external stuff that's happening.
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I think it's fascinating that, you know, as you say,
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we live our lives for other people. We tend to
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be impostors in our life because we're not really who
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we are. And for you to go through that process
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and have that realization, I think is phenomenal.
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And you know what amazes me and fascinates me is
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that you can have a dream like you did about
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your brother.
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And you know, be able to warn him and obviously
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he still had the accident. So where do you feel
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that comes from? Where do you feel that that type
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of insight? Because I know that you have that, Where
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does that come from?
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There? I am there, nothing, is and everything the one
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who knows. And this is something that also scares us
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because for me, since I was a child, I knew
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what I knew. And one other thing that I couldn't
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shake off especially was but why am I dreaming only
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about bad things and they end up happening? For me,
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there was a question that I had And another thing
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was why would you show me something that I can't change?
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So these are the questions that I just had beckon
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forth with God or whoever that consciousness since I was
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a child. So I believe that we all have We
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all have this to a certain extent within us. But
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like I said, we listen outside of us. We don't
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trust that in a voice. And actually what's coming to
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mind is even when you're talking about like whether it's
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the mother wound, the father wound, you know, all that
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is coming through because there is an authority just since
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we're from when we are children, that tells us what
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we think is the truth, like we believe them and
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all that. And when you are raised by a parent
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who somehow they deny your truth and they want you
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to believe what they think is true, eventually you also
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deny your truth. You don't believe your truth, you don't
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trust your truth because you buying whatever that you are told.
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So I believe this, this is the truth that is
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from within us. From that, I am yes. And you
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know what's fascinating.
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I know you talk about using Africa an ancient quantum medicine,
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and the word that strikes me there is well a
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couple of words. You know, ancient obviously, but quantum also
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because you know, I'm not sure most people really understand
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this sense of quantum physics, the quantum field that exists
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out there and the information that is there. And as
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I look at that, I think, you know, what if
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there is no time within the quantum arena in the field.
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That means that literally, if you can tap into that.
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You can literally experience the future or see the future
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or whatever that happens to be. So what ultimately brought
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you to the point of what you're doing now? And
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what is it exactly that you are doing now?
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I'll say with that Jennie of who are you and
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me wanting to know? That interesting because the first thing
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that I was led to it was just like that
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voice again coming through and said you want to know
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who you are? And I said yeah, and that was it.
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Then it went quiet and I was like, okay, whatever,
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I'm going to sleep. So I went to bed, and
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as soon as my head hit the pillow, I went
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into this trance and I just felt this notch like
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from within I am And I had to say my name,
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my first, my second, and my last name. And I
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could say my first name. When it comes to the
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second name, I couldn't. I tried to push through, I couldn't.
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And at the end, it's kind of like a portal
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opened and I connected with what was happening at the
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time when I was given the second name, what my
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my paternal family felt like because they had a problem
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with my mom and I didn't know because my mom
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was even late. I was like, I wish it was alive.
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And there was just like that argument to say the
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child of this woman can be named this because they
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felt somehow superior and all that, you know. So I
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went there and I started crearing all this name and
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all that. But more I was more still be operating
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from those approval sicker mask, like wanting validation, and I
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wanted to belong somehow even though I was on my path.
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So at first when I had people talking about, oh,
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I'm channeling the angels and all that, and I was
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just like, oh, that would be good, especially having a
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religious background, so I'll be like, yeah, channelling angels. Imagine