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who you've made better. It's about what you've given back.
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Denzel Washington, welcome to Inspire Vision. Our sole purpose is
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to elevate the lives of others and to inspire you
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to do the same.
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Larry, Welcome to the show.
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Thanks Doctor doug Hey, I'm I'm excited to have you
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on this show.
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Y'alling interesting topic that we're going to talk about today,
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and I'd love for you to kind of share with
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the audience who you are, what your background is, and
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how did you end up and what was your journey
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to bring you to this point in your life and
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doing what you're doing.
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So I had no idea that my life was in
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the advertising world. That's why I spent my career. And
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in the advertising world, you have to communicate by shorter
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words and simpler words, because that's what it takes to
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survive in advertising. If you don't have shorter, similar words,
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nobody's going to listen to you. And so that's where
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I was actually started my life in the advertising business,
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but through the nineties, and actually, if I go back
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to the nineteen seventies, I married a woman who is
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the toughest roughest woman in the world in my life,
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and she became my wife, and that's Marcia, and Marcia
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made my life very, very hard. The reason it was
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so hard is because that marriage was a woman who
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was raised in a home of strong people. The mother
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and father were very strong and when they got when
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they wanted to make their point, they got angry. And
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so that's what she learned. She learned anger. In the meantime,
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I have parents who were very quiet and subdued and
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didn't share their feelings. They didn't do anything mean to
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each other. They were very nice people, but privately they
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were not happy. And because they were not happy. One
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was an alcoholic and one was a gambler. So that's
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my so. My parents were shut down experts. They shut down,
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that's what they did. So when the woman who was
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angry marries the man who shuts down, what happens, Well,
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she gets angry and he shuts down just so predictably.
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But that was at the very beginning, and I didn't
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see any of that, didn't know any of it, didn't
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have any idea. So I spent forty years with her,
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and so for the first twenty seven years that was
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the hardest time of my life because the so, just
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to give you some historical perspective, when they impeached Nixon,
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that's the year we married, and when they elected the
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second Bush, that's when I ended my twenty seven years
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of hell. And the reason I ended by hell is
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because I didn't divorce her. What I did is I
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finally realized I could love myself. And when I could
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love myself, I changed all kinds of things. So the
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reason she was so angry is because I was so angry.
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The reason she was so reactionary to me is I
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was reactionary to myself, and so all the stuff that
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I learned I learned through pain, and in that forty
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years to the first twenty seven years was the most
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dramatic of that pain. And so that was really you know,
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people will say, well, are you a psychologist? I said, no,
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I had Marcia. I was raised by a marsha. And
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so let me interrupt you for a minute, because you
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brought something and I don't want to forget.
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Talking about it real quick. So after twenty seven years
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you said you started to learn to love yourself. What
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gave you that awareness? What came up or what happened
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that you ultimately said to yourself, Oh, my goodness, this
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has a lot to do with me, not her.
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Yes, well, that didn't come easy at all. And if
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you could picture the portrait, the portrait is a mad,
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angry woman storming around and attacking me in every way
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she could. And what I was doing was reacting to
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that and shutting down. And in the shutdown, I was
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learning something. And so I used to take out yellow
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pads and paper and I would write curiously for pages
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and pages and pages of what am I learning? What
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am I discovering? Because I was trying to become a learner,
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because if I didn't become a learner, I would become
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just a person who had collapsed into some kind of depression.
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So I couldn't have that. So I had to spend
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all my energy learning from what she was providing. She
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was providing pain, and a pain provider is a very
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good thing in life. When you have a pain provider,
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whether it be a professor, whether it be an army
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drill sergeant, whether it be a bad boss, no matter
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what it is, it's going to teach you something. And
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that's where you're going to learn to be really who
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you really are. And so that's really what happened to me.
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I had to learn who I really was. And so
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in the twenty seven years that started in the seventies
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and I went through that whole twenty seven years getting
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closer and closer and closer to discovering who I really was.
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And so when we look at me as a I
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use a scale called the Chaos to Purpose scale, and
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so I was raised right in the middle of that
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scale in the Twilight Salt. The middle of the scale
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is the place where they don't really raise you. You raise yourself.
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And the reason you have to raise yourself is because
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they're not teaching you they're not guiding you, they're not
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giving you principles, they're not saying anything to you. Really,
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So what my mother father were doing is they were
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trying to live their own lives. And because they were
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trying to live their own lives, they weren't raising us
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because that wasn't their passion. Their passions with their own
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self pursuits. So that was my discovery process. And so
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as I started to learn that more and more, I
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had to decide, like what do I know about myself?
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What do I like about myself? And this is not
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like that simple, it's like what do I like about myself?
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You don't ask yourself that question when you're going through pain,
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but a whole I like to say, it's a very convoluted,
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distorted learning process, and you can't duplicate it. You can't
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duplicate that learning process because it's in pain. You were
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in pain every day, every month, every week, every year.
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You're always in pain under some kind of new event.
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It's always causing you trouble. So I really couldn't do
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anything but stick to it and keep on learning. The
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other reason I kept sticking to it and not leaving,
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quitting divorcing is because I was programmed to stay married
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and miserable, and that's how my per parents were, that's
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what her parents were. They were married and miserable. And
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by staying married and miserable, you have to not quit.
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learning to continue. So the sticking to the big sticking
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point for me was saying, I either have to go
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ahead in learning or I have to go backwards and collapse.
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Ahead in learning or backwards and collapse. I couldn't decide,
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and so I had some pressure event had to do it.
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became my snap line. I really decided that I'm going
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to be a learner. I'm going to use all this
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trouble to learning. So that's what the twenty seven years like.
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Somewhere in the early part of it, I had to
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make the decision that I was going to stay and learn.
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And so that meant a lot of writing, a lot
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of journaling, a lot of discovery. And my little format
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was my yellow Legal Paths, where I had them all
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stacked up with all kinds of ida is and tools
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and discoveries and all those things. But why did I
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learn it? All that way. I learned it because I
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was in pain, and so I always like to say
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when people are in pain, when they're like, the most
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common one is really tough marriages. But what people want
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to do is they want to leave bad marriages. And
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so in my discovery process of working with marriage all
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these you know, fifteen years, I realize these patterns that
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people have, they have a chaos childhood, and so they like,
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what will happen is the high side of the scale.
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They're raised on the high side of the scale. They
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marry a person raised on the low side of the scale.
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And the reason that's so important is because the scale
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represents values, so values of commitment, loyalty, honesty, commit joy, communication, comfort, likability,
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all those values that you're given in a ten side
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of the scale at the high side. What you learned
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in the low side is dysfunction, debate, arguing, fighting, criticism, blame, defensiveness, confrontation.
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You learn all those things in the lower side of
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the scale. And that's what it is. It's a value system,
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a value of the high sight, a value of the
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lower side. And so that's actually what I discovered slowly
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going through this is I really was raised in the
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middle of the scale what I called the twilight zone,
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because they didn't really raise me. I had to figure
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everything out myself. That's why when I got married, I
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had no idea what was happening, Like, I don't even
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know why I'm married or how it happened. It just
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wasn't just a strange thing that was. It didn't even
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have anything to do with falling in love. It had
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to do more with interest. I was interested in her, right,
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It was not like I fell in love with it.
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I didn't really have that. So I didn't love myself,
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so it made sense that I would get married to
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a person who couldn't love me. That would make sense, right,
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So now that I'm living that way, I had to
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finally decide, through a lot of trouble that I had
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to be a learner. And becoming a learner is a
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decision anybody can make, but they can't make it unless
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they have a pain source.
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So what happened after is they can't what happened after
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twenty seven years? And you know you talked about forty
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years now, So what happened after twenty seven and how
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did you ultimately start to develop a different relationship with
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your wife.
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So when SO think about this, I'm learning from her
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because she's providing pain. She's not providing teaching or instruction.
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She's providing pain. What I'm providing is discovery, and I'm
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discovering things about myself and about her and about childhood
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and all the stuff that's being taught in psychology, and
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all that information is out there. You just have to
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go find the pieces of assembly. So I was motivated to
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do that, and that's why I talk so much about
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chaos kids, because what chaos kids are people who are
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raised at the bottom of the scale and they get
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married as adults and they expect they're going to have
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a marriage. Well, a chaos kid can't even stay married
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longer than twenty seven years, and the ones that go
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beyond twenty seven years are held by some other kind
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of glue that keeps them together that they don't even understand.
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So I realize that chaos kids are really the reason
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why marriages collapse. So I've spent time with people both
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raised at the top of the scale, and I've seen
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their dynamics, and their dynamics are they have goodwill, they
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have kindness, they have a sense of humor, they have likableness,
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they have forgiveness. That's the stuff that two people at
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the top of the scale are like. That's what they're like.
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That's why they can go to a marriage seminar, learn
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whatever's being delivered and suddenly get better and like you think, wow,
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look at that marriage. And I really turned them around. Well,
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the reason they turned them around because they were both
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purpose kids. So I actually spent some time in a
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seminar with a guy who is teaching these kinds of ideas,
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and so when he would find people who really were
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trouble right, agree with a lot of trouble, I meet
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with them at the back of the room. And when
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I meet with them in the back of the room,
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you know what I found every time one or both
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of them were chaos kids. One or both of them
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were at the bottom of that scale, that really troubling
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value system. And so every time I found that, and
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the guy on stage would say, hey, if you really
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are having some real serious trouble, go see lyrics very
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back of the room. Right. So now remember this group
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a seminar like about seventy to eighty people, and the
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people who came to the back of the room were
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really hurting. Why were they hurting because they had chaos
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in their childhoods. And that means the chaos is in
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that big vat below the conscious mind. Right, that big
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vat holds all the instructions from the fifty five thousand
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hours of our waking days. For ten years, we spend
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that kind of time with our parents. Those parents are
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they call them programmers, but what they are is they're
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people who give instructure and they get instruction because of
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what they don't do. They give instruction because of what
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they do do. They give instruction by how they hurt.
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They give instruction by how they support. So all the
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things they give out are some kind of instruction in