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you have or even what you've accomplished. It's about what
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you've done with those accomplishments. It's about who you've lifted up,
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who you've made better. It's about what you've given back.
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Denzel Washington, welcome to Inspire Vision. Our sole purpose is
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to elevate the lives of others and to inspire you
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to do the same.
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Neil, welcome to the show.
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Oh, thank you so much. It's a pleasure to be here.
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Well, and I really appreciate it. You know, you you've
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You've done a lot of things in your life, and
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you've obviously written this incredible book, and you have an
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amazing story. I'd love for you to share the audience
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who you are and what brought about your writing this book,
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and you know, feel free to share some of those experiences.
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Absolutely so, D Neil Elliott. The d's just initial for
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my first name, too, different me on the author on
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the internet. So who am I? Well, I am like you.
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I'm a spiritual being having a human experience, okay, and
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I agree with that. And but from a human perspective?
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Who am I? Professional engineer MBA? You know, manage projects
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in the corporate world for you know, over thirty years,
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small and large, you know, multimillions, and you know, a
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few hundred thousand and married twice, second marriage, you know,
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three kids combined, five grandchildren sixth one at the end
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of this month perhaps, and what else you know, I,
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like everybody else, got into kind of following the corporate world,
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and you know, you do what you have to do
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to be able to survive and navigate through this world.
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And as we and as we do that, we you know,
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we kind of lose, we lose who we really are
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and we become this a traumatron almost, you know, kind
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of just trying to fit in and trying to work
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and trying to navigate our way through the world and
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lose sight of, you know, kind of things that perhaps
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we should be focused on bottom line. You know, got
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really depressed, suicidal, and then I had a spiritual awakening
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and it's just been this. So I was fifty seven
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fifty eight by the time that happened, and then I
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just had this beautiful upward journey since then, and life
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is good. And you know, it doesn't mean I don't
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have challenges. Of course, we always do as we navigate this,
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but you know, I just view the world so differently
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than I did it before.
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Yeah, And you know, you talk about how and someone
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uses phrase once before, and I just kind of fell
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into it that we're really living a life as an
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impostor because we're not really living our life. We're living
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the life of our parents, of our school, of our religion,
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or our society. We're living everything that we think we
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should be rather than living who we truly are. Would
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you say that's a fair accurate statement.
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I say that's a fair accurate, fair and accurate statement.
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The only thing I would add to that is, you know,
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it's all designed to work this way for us to
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have those experiences to learn and grow and to learn
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and bring balance back. Uh, you know, balance and masculine
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and the feminine and you know, we have been subjucated
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to this uh you know uh society which has rules
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and structure, and we adopted those beliefs and we followed
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those beliefs, and look where it's gotten us, you know,
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globally individually. That's so true.
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And you know, you talk about a very sensitive issue,
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and that is suicide. And I just had a nephew
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that that took his life, and I think and I
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think that it's something that you know, it's probably not
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the main topic we want to talk about today, but
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I'd love for you to share with the audience what
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feelings were you going through, where you were near that situation,
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and then let's talk about what brought you out of that.
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Yeah. Absolutely, you know. So I was working in the
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corporate world up until about two thousand and two, and
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then I went into business on my own and then
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became a consultant and very successful in that business. You know,
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my wife and I, you know, we choose from Germany.
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We had great times traveling all those kinds of things.
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So when I wasn't working, you know, I was having
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a lot of fun and I love to go out
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and see things. But in reality, you know, being a
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project manager is really what it is. It's a stressful job.
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It's stress because you're worried about everything. You're trying to
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mitigate risk all the time, and you're trying to meet
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the needs of the client or your bosses if you're
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working in an organization and they have high expectations, and
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you feel if you don't do well, you know you're
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going to be reprimanded or let go or whatever it is, right,
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and so you know you're balancing this all the time,
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and you I believed I was doing okay, but really
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what was happening was I was getting really depressed. And
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I didn't share it with my wife and my family,
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and I just kept it to myself, didn't talk to
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anybody about it, and just you know, we wear this facade,
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we project whatever, you know, we want that helps us
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navigate the world. But inside, you know what you see
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and you see how somebody behaves is not necessarily how
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they really are, how they're really feeling. True, And so
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I was just totally like I got to a point
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where I no matter what I did, I couldn't get
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out of this depression. It feels like it felt like
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I was working to try and keep up with the
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joneses or get ahead of them, so I could show off,
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you know, and feel good about myself, you know, achieve
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a goal, and then after a while it gets mundane
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and boring. So it so set another goal to achieve.
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Achieve that, you know, by the car, by the house,
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by the motorcycle, you know, those kinds of things, and
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looking externally for all of these things that would fulfill me,
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you know, that make me happy. And but really what
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I was doing was I was I was really detaching
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myself from who I really who we really are, and
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just getting more and more depressed. And finally I got
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to the point of, what's the point of all of this?
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No matter how hard I work, no matter how much
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money I make, I can't seem to get ahead. You know,
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I'm just I'm just part of that system. Can't seem
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to get ahead. You know, everybody, you know, the banks
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make a lot of money from me, you know, everybody
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else makes a lot of money. I'm working really hard,
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as slaving away, and I can't seem to get ahead.
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And so I just got to this point of I'm done,
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you know, like I'm gonna you know, our house finally
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sold after being on the market for five years. I
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felt my wife would be okay because you know, my
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life insurance. I did it in the right way. Life
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insurance would pay out and she'd be fine financially and
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I could just exit without any harm to anybody. Now
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that's ridiculous now when I think about it, because of
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all the people that would be upset about that, But
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at the time that's how I felt. So yeah, it's just,
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you know, it's hard to describe, but just like totally
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done with life and what happened?
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What brought you out of that situation?
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Well, the house sold and live in Canada, Western Coast,
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West Coast, Canada, and my wife got on a plane
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to We're in this little one bedroom mental apartment, you know,
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the house. We still had to move out and stuff.
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we had this signed deal. My wife got on a
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plane to fly to Toronto, Ontario, Canada, to visit family
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and friends. I sat down in this little one bedroom
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room kitchen table and my suicide crafted my suicide note.
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And about a week prior to that, some information came
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to me in this really fortuitous fashion, and it promised
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to liberate me from my thinking. If I studied it,
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then I followed it, and I thought, well, you know
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one last you know, they'll sliver of hope here. I'll
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give it a go. If it doesn't work, I can
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always I can always pull the trigger. And so I thought, okay,
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well I'll try this, and this is the information I
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share in my book. I share this whole story and
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then this information in the book. So if people want
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to know what information that is, you know, they get
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my book, they'll find out there's very lude to the
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story until you get to the information. And so I
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started studying it and following it. And part of the
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process is this meditation. And the meditation you learn to
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go beyond in the intellect, beyond all reasoning, and going
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to the silence and stillness your mind. So there's a
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practice for doing that. There's a way to do it,
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and you have to know what your target is. And
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this information was so it was based in Newtonian science,
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and it bridged this gap between spirituality and science in
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a way which I had never read before. And what
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I did was I read it without judging it and
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with and if I came across something that I was
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reading that I kind of learned, and I don't know
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about that. I just put it aside and I thought
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about all the things that did make sense to me
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at the time, and so I just followed it. And
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it took about a month and a half or so
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to go through the material, maybe two months to go
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through the material. And I just kept cycling through that
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material as I was learning to practicing meditation, and at
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about the seven month mark, kind of building faith as
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I was going this was so logical and rational. I thought, okay, well,
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I'll just keep going on this and i'll try it.
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You know, if it doesn't work in a year or two,
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I can always pull the trigger. And but the seven
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month park, I felt this little tingling at the top
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of my head. I didn't know what it was, felt
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really strange, never felt it before, but I thought, okay, well,
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you know whatever, I'll just keep going on this. And
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about the ninth month, that little tingling about the size
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of diamond grute, about four inches in diameter, and then
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it just kept growing. Like today, you put a bowl
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over my head and that opening is as you know,
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big as that below my ears. And what was happening
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was I was building new brain cells impressed with new knowledge,
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the under the top of the or at the top
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of the brain, underneath the skull, and they operated at
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a higher vibrational frequency which allowed whatever you want to
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call it, God or creator, source, prime, the universal, whatever
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you want to call it, make this connection. And then
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this energy would flow in through my head, and it
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might reside in my head or in my chest or
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my throat or my solar plexus. It would come into
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my body and go down one side of the body
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and up the other side of the body, or go
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down the whole body and the backup, or just sit
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in certain areas in the body. And I could feel
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all of this going on as I meditate, and I
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meditate ninety minutes every morning. First thing when I get up,
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I get coffee, I sit down, I listen to a
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little bit of material, and then I met it. And
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then at the end of December, so that was beginning.
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This was November twenty seventeen. The end of December twenty eighteenth,
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I had two meditations two days apart. I went into
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this meditation and you know, kind of got settled and
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in it into the south and some stillness of the mind,
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and then all of a sudden, like in a flash,
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like in a nanosecond, I was just filled with unconditional
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love and totally like I was a deep sea diver
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suspended in an ocean of unconditioned It was just I
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felt non judged. I felt it didn't matter what I
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had done to anybody. I felt didn't matter what anybody
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had done to me. I just felt totally loved and supported.
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And we don't have the human language to describe it,
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but you know, I was in that meditation and I
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just I wanted to stay there. I didn't care what
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aches and paints my body had, what illness has had, nothing.
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And so I came out of that meditation, and uh,
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two days later I had the exact same meditation, and yeah,
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it was just it was just beautiful. So I've just
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setting here, just want to make sure that the audio
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in the video is coming through. Okay, Oh everything's coming through. Okay, yeah, okay,
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perfect and anyway, So I came out of that, and
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then two days later I had the exact same meditation,
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and at that point I knew that what I experienced
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brings brought me back, and brings us back if we
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follow this kind of process, brings us back to our
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truth of who we really are. And then from that
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point forward, it's just been this all onward upward knowing.