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At the end of the day, it's not about what
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you have or even what you've accomplished. It's about what
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you've done with those accomplishments. It's about who you've lifted at,
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who you've made better. It's about what you've given back.
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Denzel Washington, Welcome to inspire vision. Our sole purpose is
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to elevate the lives of others and to inspire you
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to do the same.
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Gloria, Welcome to the show.
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Hello, welcome, Thank you so much for having me. Welcome.
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I am excited. Yeah, and I think we happen to
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be in different parts of the world this time around.
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Where are you? Where are you at?
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I'm in England, in England.
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And I'm in and I'm in Thailand, so wow, working
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really well here. Yeah, and it's so wonderful to be
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able to use zoom to talk to people all over
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the world. I think it's just amazing.
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I really love it. I do have clients literally all
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over the world as well, and it just, I don't know,
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it makes me feel I feel so connected, you know,
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I feel so connected. It's it's a beautiful thing to
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be able. You know, I wouldn't have years ago if
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I if I had done you know, if I was
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you know, older, and I had done this profession, you know,
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years and years ago, I think that I could have
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just had people in person, you know, and and that
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and that's great. But to be able to reach so
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many people, I mean, I have clients in Australia. How
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amazing is that? You know, it just feels yeah, yeah, yeah.
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It's phenomenal. It's just phenomenal what what technology has allowed
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us to do. So as we get started, what I'd
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love for you to do is to kind of share
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your journey. You know, everybody reaches a certain element when
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we start to talk on the podcast, and I find
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it's always interesting. Everybody has a very fascinating journey that
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they've experienced, and sometimes it starts at childhood, sometimes later
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on in life, but share your journey with the audience
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who you are and how you got to this point
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doing what you're doing.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. So I well, the point that
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I am at now doing what I'm doing is I'm
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a spiritual I'm a spiritual medium, and I'm a psychic
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development teacher as well and in general spiritual guide. I
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was definitely not always this at all. I was not,
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even though there were very early signs that I actually was.
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You know, I understand that that sounds confusing, but stay
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with me. Stay with me. So when I was little,
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I was. I was. I was born in Italy. Actually
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I'm originally Italian, so I was born in a little
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village in Italy, and I was a very sensitive, connected child. Yeah.
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So I could hear energy, so I could feel energies,
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I could sense a lot of things. I was a
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highly emotional, emotionally sensitive little child. However, I grew up
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in an environment which was, you know, a loving environment.
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I had loads of love in my childhood, absolutely, but
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it was also, I feel an environment that was not
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necessarily ready or open to the way that I was.
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If that makes sense.
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Let me ask you a question, was it Did you
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have a religious family.
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I did, yes, yes, Catholic, yes, yes, yes, yeah yeah
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yeah yeah yeah yeah. I was raised Catholic. But that
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it's not only because of that. I think that my
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parents had their own wounds, their own things to sort out,
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and I think that they didn't necessarily have the emotional
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space to you know, raise a child that you know,
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was as sensitive probably as I was, you know, and
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so that sort of hurt a little bit. I'm not
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gonna lie that hurt. And from there there were patterns
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that started to come out in my life in the
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people that I was relating to. And then, you know,
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there was a lot of body shaming, you know, since childhood,
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there was a lot of not validating emotions. There was
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a lot of dismissing who I was, you know, And
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so that caused me to follow certain things later in life,
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and I ended up having certain friendships. And then when
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I was eighteen, eighteen years old, yes, I was bullied
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a lot as well, actually in school, so that brought
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a lot of insecurities, a lot of self doubt and
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all of these sort of things. And then when I
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was eighteen, I met a boy and I thought, oh
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my goodness, this boy saved me from all of the
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darkness that I have ever experienced in my life. Turns
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out the boy was a darkness, but that's okay. So yeah,
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So I ended up in this really long relationship. I
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ended up marrying this person, and it was a significant
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experience in my life. And what I experienced was narcissistic abuse,
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and so the very emotional and very sensitive part of
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myself was even more shut down, right, it was even
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more not validated, even more shut down. Head loads of anxiety, developed,
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obsessive compulsive disorder, a lot of self hate. There. It
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was a very very dark period of my life. And
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I got to a point when I was when I
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turned thirty. I remember I was I used to work
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in events. I used to be events director for a
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leisure company or company of pubs and bars in central London,
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and I somebody from a third party that we used
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to work with wanted to do promotional videos and they said, oh,
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you you can we interview you for this for our
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promo and I said yes, and then they sent the
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video and I didn't recognize myself, you know, And I
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didn't see that the person that was on the video
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had anything to do with me physically. The way that
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I was carrying myself, that they were, the way that
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I was talking like, I felt like I was looking
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at somebody else. And so that triggered something inside of me,
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and I started looking a little bit more seriously at
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what I was going through, which was severe anxiety and
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ORCD at the time inside of this marriage, even though
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I was not aware that the marriage was the problem
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at the time. So I started looking get that a
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bit more seriously, and while the anxiety kept getting worse
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and worse and worse, and so I got to the
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point where I was like, you know what if I
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don't do something about this, I really I'm at the
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point now that I really do not know what's going
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to happen to me. I have no idea. I'm barely functioning,
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you know, I'm just barely staying afloat, barely staying alive.
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I do not know what's going to happen. And so
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I decided to start working with a coach who specialized
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in anxiety disorders, and the journey sort of started from
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what caused the anxiety, you know. But at the first session,
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I remember, I've mentioned everything I mentioned my childhood, I mentioned,
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you know, all of the things. The insecurity is the
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self fate. I mentioned all of the things, and the
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last question that she asked me she said, okay, and
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what about your relationship? What about your marriage? And I said,
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oh my god, no, thank god he's here, you know,
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thank god he's here in my life because he's making
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everything better. So fast forward a year and a half.
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I spend with this coach doing working on OCD and
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anxiety and I have half the OCD. So just to
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give you, just to give you an idea of what
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it was. OCD is a for people who are listening
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that are not familiar with it, is obsessive compulsive disorder. Essentially,
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your brain is telling you to do certain things in
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a certain way in your life. Do like little rituals,
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little habits. It has a lot to do with counting
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what you do, doing the same things over and over again.
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The reason behind it is that your brain thinks that
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if you don't do things in a certain way, something really,
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really bad is going to happen. Yeah, I thought that
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I was going to die. I thought that somebody that
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I loved was going to die, that the world was
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gonna It's a very very catastrophic thing that plays in
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your head, and so I call them like rituals. Right,
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all of these habits, all of these things that I
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had to do, and I had about forty a day
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of these rituals. I would be ready to go to
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work in the morning, ready with my coat, my handbag,
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and it would take me about half an hour to
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actually leave the house before, you know, because I had
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to do all certain things. And if I were put
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if I was putting on my jewelry in a certain
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way and I would miss a little bit, I would
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take it all off and start again because something bad
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would happen. Right, So it was the extent like this
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is how much it was overtaking my life. And this
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was just you know, in the morning, then I had
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stuffed during the day. Then before bed it was a
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whole different routine. So it was very, very, yeah, very
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occupying a lot of my life. There was a lot,
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a lot of anxiety in that. So anyway, first forward
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a year and a half that I spent with working
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with this coach and my OLCODYA have halfed So I
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have now half of the rituals, which means that I
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have fifty percent more space in my brain. Right and
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with this right, with this fifty percent that I had
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freed up, all of a sudden, I studied seeing things
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that I wasn't able to see before. So I started
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to recognize my ex husband's you know, behaviors, and I
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started questioning them. I started being like, wait a minute,
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this is this is not right. Why are you making
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me feel like this? Why are you twisting all the
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things that I say like I don't understand?
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I started having space a little bit more for myself,
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so I started reading again. You know, I used to
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read a lot when I was a child, and then
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I completely stopped. So I started to reconnect with myself
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through books. And the more I did that, the more
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space I freed, right. And then I had a beautiful experience.
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I went to the US on a trip for a
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couple of weeks, and I visited Monument Valley and I
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had this beautiful I can only call it an awakening.
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I don't know, I don't know what else to call it,
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but I was there. We took a sunrise tour of
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the valley and I was sat there on taking pictures
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on this rock which is called john Ford Point, And
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you're sat on the edge of this rock and the
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whole valley is in front of you, right, And if
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you have been to Monument but I mean, if you've
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seen it in pictures, you already know it's kind of majestic.
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of Monument Valley. Yeah, I have another home in Utah, so.
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it's so you know, it's very spiritually charged. And anyway,
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so I'm I'm they're going to sat on this thing
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while they're taking pictures, and I am just looking outside
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of the valley, and all of a sudden, I feel
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so small. I felt so small, and I had this
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like something like that nloaded in me. That's why I'm saying,
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like I can only call it a spiritual awakening, like
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something sort of like landed inside. And I thought, this
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is I am completely insignificant. Everything that is going on
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in my life is completely insignificant. I said, look at this,
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Look at the majesty of all of this that's in
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front of me. I'm one tiny little person in here,
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and all my problems seem so big. Everything that I
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am living seems so big. But actually, in the grand
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scheme of things is really not, is it. And I
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realized that a lot of the ways in which I
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was living my life was lying to myself. I had
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started to realize, right and so I made a promise
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to myself right there, and then I had a nice cry,
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you know when you heard this nice cry. Moments significant moments,
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and I had a nice cry. And then I thought,
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that's it. I'm promising. I'm making a promise right now.
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I'm never gonna lie to myself ever again. And eight
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months after that, I left my marrit and I went
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to live by myself, and that was a whole different
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kind of journey. But then then I met my current partner,
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who was the complete opposite of, you know, the relationship
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that I had been in before. And I feel like
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I started to come back home, you know, to myself.
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I started to come back home to myself and I've
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had I started having people. You know, my body changed.
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I lost a lot of weight, you know, again, like
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when you when you're when you're healing, you know, you
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can see it. It's not only internal, you know, people
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can see it from the outside. And I started having
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a load of people, loads of people coming to me
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and saying, you know how amazing. It was a whole
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journey that I'd been on, you know, and they wished
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that they could do that, and you know, they wish
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that they could get out of the relation. And it
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dawned on me and I said, but you can. All